Thursday, 21 October 2010

red wine


Photo: David Hamilton

Wednesday, 20 October 2010

Tuesday, 19 October 2010

a normal day

Have we now reached the same wall we have
stared in to so many times before?

Maybe you're happy to see me, but your smile
bares a secret; mocking, revenge..
You then realise that I'm not a high priority in
your life right now, and build up a mure between
us.

You don't kiss me, don't give me any affection, and
I try to be brave, but break and put on my icecold,
hard, and judging mask.
And here I am again, I don't know if I should be devestated,
worried, or calm.

I'm paralyzed by my powerlessness,
and they say that to not be in control is supposed to be
something liberating.

- FUCKING DRUGS!

You said you would call later, so I turned my phone back on
(which I turned off this morning to prevent my heart from
leaking).

Monday, 18 October 2010

a silly lovesong

i thought too much about what I need
so I forgot what You need
and still I complainafter the most loving weeks i have ever experienced
and now i am scared that you might close yourself in
shut me out
as you usually do when i am being stupid



i love you so much
please, don't give up on me

Friday, 1 October 2010

in my drunken state




..i think of ice and knives.
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