Sunday, 31 July 2011

I couldn't be happier!

I'm dead tired after 4 murderous days at work, but despite my sore legs and tired feet I'm gonna start packing up and clean out my room!
Tomorrow we're going into town to get some essentials for the first week (borrowed a coffee machine from work haha) and clean all our clothes, aaaaaand on Tuesday morning we move in!!! :D Happy happy happy!


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Thursday, 28 July 2011

Growing up.

I have always moved around a lot in my life, with my parents, grandparents, and now on my own. I always get restless and bored of one place very quickly, and always dream of some other place. I used to be like that in relationships as well.

But Thom has made me think differently about all of that, and as long as he's there I want to be there.

We got the contract for our 1 bedroom flat yesterday and it feels very exciting and lovely and wonderful and aaaaaaaaaamazing! :D Come visit us in Guildford.


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Tuesday, 26 July 2011

X

I've had a lovely two days.

Yesterday after work, I came home and watched two movies with my favourite and ordered
some Chinese to go with it, plus some wine; win!


We were gonna drink our wine in the garden, but the wasps were to aggressive so we went back inside.

And today we went in to town to pay rent and Thom handed in a CV to Subway. We bought some pick n' mix and sushi and took a walk through the park and had our lunch on a bench with a lovely view.





Monday, 25 July 2011

Nej tack.

Det uppskattas inte när "vänner" snackar skit om en för att manipulera andra att få en
särskild bild utav mig som kanske inte alls stämmer.

Det hatas för mycket och det är för mycket avundsjuka. Bara sluta.

Lucky.

Good morning.

It's a beautiful day and I feel so lucky for everything I have in my life.

The news are packed with horrific stories from survivors in Norway, and photos
of crying family memebers and friends of the dead. It hurts to read about it and
to see the images, and I can't help but wish for a life in darkness for Anders Behring Breivik..
He doesn't deserve to sleep, or eat, or see the light of day. He is a sick man, and
he should be punished for the rest of his life.
Not just because he killed 94 innocent people, but also because of his right-wing extremist
opinions that make another few million people in this world not worth their lives (in his opinion).

Love to Norway, I will have a minute of silence today to honor all the people who died that day.
Love to all my friends and family in Norway and Sweden and England and wherever they may be.

Sunday, 24 July 2011

All my love to Norway













The following images are taken from www.dn.se (Swedish newspaper).


Saturday, 23 July 2011

Shitty shit

It's horrifying when you read in the Swedish news about what's going on in Norway ATM, and it reminds me of the shootings in columbine.. 84 murdered children and youths so far, and they're still looking.
And I'm worried about their friends and families as well as my own friends and family..

How can someone be so SICK??
That I'll never get in to my head...

On top of that, I'm having a shit day myself. More lies are being digged up, and I can't take it anymore.

Someone please take me to tranquility and sunshine.

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Friday, 22 July 2011

Wedding Photography

I really want to get in to wedding photography after seeing so many creative photographers doing what they do best at a wedding, and I just want to create, create, create!

The problem is though that all wedding photographers out there are looking for experienced assistants, and since I've never done a wedding before I'm not exactly suitable..
Where are all wedding photographers who might consider an unexperienced photographer as an assistant? Or even just let me come along and see how he/she's working, and try out a little bit of photography in the background?







The above photos are taken by Swedish photographer and one of my favourite artists Evelina Hultqvist (check out her website, her photography is amazing!).





I found these images on Eveline's blog, but neither her or me knows who took these wonderful wedding portraits - so, if anyone of you knows please let me know!

Thursday, 21 July 2011

Northern Women in Chanel






Photographs by Peter Farago
Exhibition at Fotografiska in Stockholm.

Dreaming away


Work is really slow and I just got here! I'm dreaming about autumn and uni work and wine-nights and me and Thom's 2 year anniversary when we're doing something special for just us two :)


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Inspiration post

I'm having this in our new flat!


Romantic stuff, that somehow always reminds me of Alice in Wonderland.

I'm going to join a Wicca coven and make some magic.

I also want a sofa in my garden.

Fruit fruit fruit.

Sorry, but I have no idea where the images come from. If you know, please let me know :)

Everyday life in a student house

Someone steals your milk, everyday, but never confesses even though I know who it was.
The spiders take over your bathroom, and your shoes, and sometimes your clothes.
You are never alone, which is both good and bad.
There's a rubbish bag in the corner of your living room because the person who filled it up couldn't be bothered to walk the extra 5 meters and put it in the bin.

These are things that annoys me this morning. And that my Sabina-time was disturbed.

Luckily, I am moving in to a fresh and clean flat very very soon, and I can't wait! As it's only going to be me and T living there no one can steal our food or milk, and everything will be so much easier to keep clean.

And I won't have to feel bad about not doing the dishes straight after I've eaten.

Wednesday, 20 July 2011

I must be psychic or something...

About an hour before I left work I got a really weird feeling that something bad was going to happen on my way home. A "vision" of cars passing by honking and people trying to be funny by screaming at you also appeared in my mind.. So when I was by the Albion I asked if Thom could come and meet me because I felt really uneasy. And what do you know, 1 car honking and another one with screaming people. Very funny. I met with Thom at the garage quite close to our house, and then, while walking towards our house, a car drives VERY close to the sidewalk and its wingmirror hits my arm! Ouch you stupid person, my arm REALLY hurts now...




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Work work work


Morning Glory

The mornings are my time. No one else is awake and everything is quiet. I can eat my breakfast, read the paper, plan my day, do some exercise without disturbance.
But this is why I love waking up:


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Something for just ME.

Where in the world can I find a place for myself, that is just mine???!!
I need one SO badly.. Somewhere to retreat to when I feel trapped and confused and when I just want to scream and break down and break away and do all the things I can only do when I'm alone..

Like singing wholeheartedly, or listen to my own music, or cry for no reason, or write down ideas and dreams without being disturbed by a TV or the clicking on a computer keyboard, or someone saying my name..

Before I came to England in 2009, and when I imagened how it would be to go to uni, I saw myself sitting in a attic studio flat with a big skylight where I could sit and do all those things I just mentioned.
And where I could set up my home studio and just create.. All day and all night. It would have its own coffee machine and editing suite and flowers and candles on the floor, and no one could come up there unless I invited them.

Something for just ME.

At the moment it feels like I'm working for everyone else but myself, all the money I earn, all the photos I take, every word I speak are for someone else.

That is NOT a life for me.

Andas, jag vill bara andas.. Ikväll.

Tuesday, 19 July 2011

Harry P.

Me, Thom and Ozzie are taking a road trip to Guildford to watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - a little bit sad, but all good has to come to and end. Gonna have a Harry Potter marathon soon me thinks!


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Trying out my new reflectors!


I bought a set of 5-in-1 reflectors the other day from eBay (you should all click the link and buy some, they're only £9.99!!!) and tried them out today.
They're really good to bring with you on shoots to enhance the eyes and get rid of shadows, or just reduce the available light.

Here's a few images I took today!


Gold reflector.

White reflector to reduce the harsh sunlight.

I'm gonna need Thom to assist me on shoots now as I can't hold the reflector AND take photos at the same time!

Silver reflector.

And this last images I just took for the pleasure of taking photos, as I haven't been doing so for at least two weeks :'(

Monday, 18 July 2011

Mobile blogging - test!

Just trying my new iPhone app :)


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Wednesday, 13 July 2011

Feelings, philosophy and photography

It is interesting how another person can have such a hold of you,
almost as if they own a part of you. A small part, but it feels so big
because you are a small part of eachother.
It hurts a little when you realise how much you love that person because
you have so much to lose.
And every single tune that touches your soul feels like one big soundtrack
to these feelings you hold inside of you..

Everything feels so good at the moment. But I am so filled up by all of this
and I have forgotten how to let it all out. I used to let the camera do the work
when I felt like this, but after being in uni for 2 years it all feels so complicated..
It is as if I have to think really hard about what I am photographing, or else it
won't be as good - It is as if people are going to look at me like I am crazy if I
can't explain where my picture language is coming from.

Like I have a clue of where all my feelings are coming from?!?! How the hell am
I supposed to explain all of my photos I take, just because I feel like it??

I guess this is just another mind-trick that my brain is playing, it is actually ME
who have convinced myself that I am not good enough if I can't explain myself.
As if I've told myself that a certain style of photography isn't worthy as ART if it
doesn't have meaning or reason.
I am setting up boundaries for myself because I'm scared of being ridculed.

I think it's time for me to go back in time a little bit, and remember how photography
was when I just started out; it was new, and I took photos of EVERYTING I found
pretty or things I wanted to remember forever. I chose the most obvious and simple
ways of doing things, and I was creative in my way of solving problems.

Now it's like I don't have time to be creative, I just need to get the job done.

I don't want that. I want my personal creativity to come back.

Tuesday, 12 July 2011

Shameless Promotion: Thomas Northrop

Filmmaker and producer Thomas Northrop is the hardest working person I've met. If something needs to be done, he does it and more! He's the producer who bangs on your door until you're awake, he's the producer who sorts out all the phonecalls, castings, coffee making, well everything a producer does and more.

He has produced some pretty awesome shorts and won't settle for "that's good enough".

Delays Expected Teaser Trailer from Thomas Northrop on Vimeo.


Donny from Thomas Northrop on Vimeo.

He always pushes to get the best people on board to make the film as good as it can be, always with perfect result.

I also have the privilege to live and love with him and I am extremely proud to be a part of his life.

Sunday, 10 July 2011

Shameless Promotion: Bianca Jenkins




Soo, I'm starting this new thing here in the blog where I'll promote artists whom I admire,
starting with a really good friend of mine, Bianca Jenkins .
She is one of the strongest people I know, and her strength, beauty and determination shows in her work.
These images I'm showing you are some of my favorites from her gallery of neverending beauty and lightplay, mixed with soft romantic colours and interesting shapes and compositions that can't do anything else but have you look at them for hours.

I strongly recommend that you have a look at her series 'Tommy' - another good example of her skill and eye for light and shape.


Delays Expected Teaser Trailer

My debut as a cinematographer! Please click this link http://www.virginmediashorts.co.uk/film/1577/delays-expected to watch the full video, and then "like" under the film if you like it for our chance to win Virgin Media Shorts 2011 :)

Delays Expected Teaser Trailer from Thomas Northrop on Vimeo.

Friday, 8 July 2011

The 365 project - Day 9

A painful day - SO sore after my little garden workout yesterday!! Can't sit down properly, my legs hurt too much haha. But at least that means it's working :)

Slow day at work, I was dead and in my own little world and just wanted to go home and sleep. But when i finally got home I watched The Lost Boys with Thom instead.
We're moving in to our new flat soon, and I can't wait! Our own little one bedroom flat. We have big plans for it ;D EXCITING!

Thursday, 7 July 2011

The 365 Project - Day 8

I am DEAD! Woke up early to start some editing of old photos that my aunt wanted to see of her beautiful children (see the photos here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/sabinahannila/sets/72157627013822831/ ) because she wants to buy some prints! (If you want to buy some prints as well, email me at sabinahannila@gmail.com for prices and sizes).

Went to work for a couple of hours, it was pretty chill. Not busy at all, and we got a lot done.
And when I got back home I did a work out in my garden. I feel so stupid, I've lived in this house for almost a year and now when I'm moving in a month I realize that I don't have to walk up to the park to go for a run and a workout, I can just run a few laps around my block and do some strength in my GARDEN! Lol. It's good to be close to home when you're coming home late from work and you want to do a workout, I don't feel very safe running around in the park all alone late at night.


Please click the link and have a look. it's about racism in the UK, and we've entered it to Virgin Media Shorts. Please "like" the film on the Virgin Media site to help us win awesome prices!

EL ESTILO Magazine

My work is featured in the latest issue of EL ESTILO Magazine! This feels awesome, my first magazine feature. Here's a link to it: http://www.elestilo.co.uk/

And these are the two featured images:





New tactics!

So, instead of moaning and feel jealous about everyone elses success, I'm going to turn that in to inspiration and motivation! And learn that I actually am pretty successful when you look at it :)

*positive thinking*

I start work at 5pm today, only working 3 hours! And what is up with Flickr recently?? I can't upload images that are over 1MB in size, and it won't let me mass upload anymore (and I have a pro account)!?! Very frustrating..
And that was today's LDC problem.

Btw..

The ads showing on my blog ATM I've put there to earn some money (everytime someone clicks on the ads I get some money).
Just so you know - I know it looks tacky, but it's for a good cause :)

Wednesday, 6 July 2011

The 365 project - Day 7

I went out for a run today in Farnham Park and got company in the shape of a roe deer - it was a little bit funny, because just before i got to the park I got an image in my head of a deer jumping out of a bush right in front of me, and then it happened.

Anyway, while I was running I started to think about where I am at with my photography career, and life in general, and I realised that I would've wanted to achieve so much more by this time in my life. It's silly to think like this as I still have the rest of my life to get where I want to be. But I feel so stressed when I see all these other photographers and artists that have just turned 18 and already travel around the world doing what they love, being sponsored by Canon, and with no money-problems.

They have worked bloody hard to get where they are, and I like to think that I also work BLOODY hard to get anywhere. I am NOT complaining about my life FYI, I am just saying that I need a breakthrough. I'm not just sitting and waiting for it, I am working everyday for it to come. So hopefully it will :)

These thoughts brought me back to June 2009 when I left Sweden to go on my first-ever holiday by myself. I went to Edinburgh (the city of my dreams!) and explored the city by myself. I had been there a couple of times before as my dad used to live and work there, but it was such a big step for me to do this all by myself as I used to be afraid of sitting in the school cafeteria and eat alone :p
And I miss that exciting time, when I'd got accepted into uni in England, and I wanted to try out how it would be to be in a city where I don't know anyone beforehand, and the anticipation and dreams of how everything would turn out to be.

And the great part is that I still remember that feeling of being somewhere new. You know when you go someplace, and how you perceived it then? I still remember how Farnham used to look to me when I didn't know my way around it.
And I need those memories, because at the moment I have a hard time getting excited about stuff. I don't know why. but I want to get excited again!

So today's photo is from when I went to Edinburgh in 2009, of a street musician I listened too for a little while.

Tuesday, 5 July 2011

Thoughts on the photography internet community

I have been stressing myself for years by thinking that I HAVE to update my blog/various portfolios online all the time to get anywhere with my photography; to build up a fanbase.
And it's true how far you can go from being active on the internet: you gain a broader audience quicker, you can enter competitions easily and get access to other people's work for inspiration.

But I have also been thinking of quitting my online-submissions completely for a while, and just take a break from the internet world and get inspiration from other things. Like real life, and really take the time to go through all my photos and analyze and criticise.

Because think about it, all the time that I spend on Facebook, deviantArt, blogging etc., is time that I could use for being out and taking photos, learning new stuff about my camera, go to exhibitions and just think things over in my own time instead of chasing constructive criticism from others.

I'll always use this space (the internet), because i think it's great that there's an easy and free way of getting noticed, but I've missed to just be alone with my thoughts and photos. I'm still going to write, but in a privet journal. And I'm also going to start to print out my photos and put in photo albums or make pretty books and sell, instead of trying to sell prints.

The 365 project - Day 6

I decided to move the project over to this blog instead, it feels much better :)

It's been raining quite a lot today, so this photo is of.. rain! I took it last week, but it doesn't really matter. I didn't want to put my camera through that experience again, it got all wet :s

These are the days when I wish I had lots of money and could go somewhere warm and sunny.. Like Morocco or Jamaica or Florida. It would be the dream! And think of all the photography opportunities! I would be in my dreamworld.
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