Friday, 14 September 2012

Reminiscing

Even though my first year of uni was quite a bad experience, I still get flashbacks from it very often and somehow feel happily nostalgic over the memories. I wish I could go back three years and tell myself to document everyday and every emotion in pictures and in writing. I wish I could go back 10 years and tell myself that to be honest. It would be interesting to remember all those small details of your life that doesn't seem very important at the time, but that would make so much sense right now.

I sometimes want to start a new university course at some other uni, just to re-live the whole experience, but I know that it's never going to be the same. But sometimes I wish I would've done things differently those first few months of living in England. I think my situation would've been very different then.

Don't get me wrong though, I am very happy with my life as it is now (but I still have dreams and ambitions to do other things of course - don't worry, I'm not going to stay in the same place forever!), but I'm just curious as the rest of us about what could have been.

I have spent this week trying to figure out what it is that I want to do for my final projects. I think I have subconsciously saved my full potential for this last year, as I want these projects to be as great and compelling as it ever could be. And I think I have my final ideas sorted. I always come up with ideas and I start working on them; but then I feel self-conscious about them and start doing something else instead. And that never works out. So this time I've told myself to believe in my projects (because they are GOOD enough) and just stick with them. Not doubt my ability to create an awesome project and don't listen to the tutors if they tell me that I need to do something I don't want to do.
I think that's the winning equation.

And that's that. I'm going to get ready for the gym now and later have a nice bowling-date with my man.

Happy Friday everyone! xxx

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